Weird morning, couldn't sleep in even though I'm exhausted. Lamee.
Have been having some intense, borderline lucid dreams lately, starting to make me go a little crazy. Almost like at any moment something from my dream is going to happen in real life, causing me to have a mental breakdown. Unsettling, and I find myself preparing for it, like planning out how I would react to the situation without making seem like I've done it all before, like an absolutely insane version of Déja vu. What a bizzare train of thought. The thing that keeps getting me is that my dreams are almost going in sequence, it's not a new plot or new situation everytime, it's the same people, same situations, but sometimes they pick up where they left off, like I pressed pause when I woke up and then hit play when I fall asleep that night. Where is a goddamn dream interpreter when you need one... Or maybe a psychotherapist. Oh my.
So in other news we have to move out by September, Vince is pretty much set on renting a whole house, but I guess we'll see.
And in other other news, I have premature beats and Cardiac Arrhythmia, which is funtimes. They are trying to figure out which type of arrhythmia it is, since some are pretty much just ignored, some need medication and some need implanted difribulators (pacemakers). Really really hoping it's not the last kind. When I went to the er Saturday morning my heart rate was nearly double what it was supposed to be, and they took me into the cardiac unit right away to give me a light sedative to slow my heart rate so I wouldn't give myself a heart attack. I then spent a few hours hooked up to an EKG but since I had waited over 12 hours to go to the hospital in the first place by the time the hooked me up they couldn't get a good look at the Arrhythmia just the premature beats. So the next time I feel it happening I have to go straight back to the er and get put on a 24/48hr heart monitor. Horray!
So that's my exciting update!
Loves and kisses
Hugs and misses,
Jessi xoxox
Friday, May 25, 2012
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Monday, February 27, 2012
Life is complicated
Saturday February 18th, we lost a beautiful woman with the most amazing spirit and soul. Her attitude towards life was nothing short of inspiring. She could fine the silver lining in any situation, no matter how dire it seemed. She kept a daily journal simply titled "Gratefulness" and she found something to be grateful for everyday. She filled 31 books with the things she was grateful for. It really made me realize just how much I take for granted and how much I have to truly be grateful for. She absolutely loved "Desiderata" and strived to live it each and every day.
She was a beautiful soul on earth and now her soul is home.
Ar dheis Dé go raibh a hanam.
Mary Nurse
April 21st, 1922- February 18th, 2012
She was a beautiful soul on earth and now her soul is home.
Ar dheis Dé go raibh a hanam.
Mary Nurse
April 21st, 1922- February 18th, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
Study Break
So, Midterms. Working fulltime and taking a full course load has its challenges. The main one being that after working 8 hours at a job like mine, when you get home you want to shower, put on baggy sweat pants, curl up on the couch and die. Well maybe not die exactly, but relax, watch a shitty tv show on netflix, read a book... instead I get to rush to shower and make myself presentable, then rush out to MUN to sit through a super awesome and exciting Math class, and then attempt to do some work in my 4 online courses before heading home to passout. I know that this is only for a little while, and it will absolutely be worth it when it's all said and done, but holy good lord does it suck.
So far I have 3 out of 5 Midterms done, they were all okay, I straight up left out a question on my Business Essentials midterm because I had no sweet clue, Microeconomics wasn't too bad, but I have a lingering feeling that a 3 page essay (that includes graphs) is not long enough for a question worth 40%. But I digress. So tonight I have Macroeconomics and Accounting tomorrow morning... I know what you're thinking, an exam on a Friday night and a Saturday morning... Jessi must be the luckiest girl in the world. I know, try not to be too jealous. :)
So other than that, Valentine's Day came and went, I got roses from a wonderful regular customer. Made my day!
So far I have 3 out of 5 Midterms done, they were all okay, I straight up left out a question on my Business Essentials midterm because I had no sweet clue, Microeconomics wasn't too bad, but I have a lingering feeling that a 3 page essay (that includes graphs) is not long enough for a question worth 40%. But I digress. So tonight I have Macroeconomics and Accounting tomorrow morning... I know what you're thinking, an exam on a Friday night and a Saturday morning... Jessi must be the luckiest girl in the world. I know, try not to be too jealous. :)
So other than that, Valentine's Day came and went, I got roses from a wonderful regular customer. Made my day!
So anyway, that's all for now :)
Loves and Smiles
Jessi xox
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Another year has passed...
Haha so back again for a little bit maybe!
3 posts in 2008, and 3 posts in 2011. The last one being almost exactly 1 year ago. There's been some changes since then. Physically, I'm stronger, and can do about 15 push ups before collapsing, lost 12lbs, and 15 inches of hair. Emotionally, I'm weaker I guess, struggling a little bit with balancing a 40 hour work week, with 5 courses at MUN, all while trying to maintain a social life and a relationship. Work and School aren't so bad, it's the latter that's really doing me in. *shrugs*
What else... so that friendship ending that I talked about in my last post was a lot harder to deal with than I was expecting. I ended up losing another 13 year friendship because of it. In the end it was definitely for the best, but sometimes it still hurts. On the upside of that, the friends that are still in my life are fan-fucking-tastic. :) I don't know what I'd do without them.
Oh yeah and the tragic part of the year, I finally got my license and bought a car! Well that's not the tragic part, that happened when after only 10 days of having my car, I rear-ended someone on Topsail Road, and not just anyone, but an employee of my old Tim's location. Awesome. Only minor damages (one small crack in my bumper, nothing on her truck) and no injuries, although she did try to claim whiplash, but the Paramedics, and Police Officers knew she was full of shit.
Other than that what else... oh right my sister-in-law Jenn and Vincent's brother Edwin (Owen's parents) had another baby, a perfect little boy Reid on January 2nd. He's so awesome. And speaking of babies, EVERYONE IS FREAKING PREGNANT! Except me, thankfully! Vincent's 3 closest cousins are all expecting, One in June, One in July and One in August. And my older sister Sarah is also expecting a little girl on June 5th! :) Yay! A niece! My parents are over the moon excited since this is the first grandchild for them.
And that's only close family, not to mention the half dozen of Liz's family whose either had them within the last year or expecting this year. It's insane.
So as I've promised before and failed, I will make an honest attempt at updating this more often.
One idea I've had was to simply update with whatever I did that day, obviously not woke up/got ready/work/school etc, that's what facebook is for. But if I cook something yummy for dinner I'll post the recipe, or if a random customer does something entertaining I'll post the story. And now that I know how to add pictures from my phone I will occasionally be adding those as well.
So maybe, just maybe I'll keep it up.
:)
smile more
love always
Jessi
3 posts in 2008, and 3 posts in 2011. The last one being almost exactly 1 year ago. There's been some changes since then. Physically, I'm stronger, and can do about 15 push ups before collapsing, lost 12lbs, and 15 inches of hair. Emotionally, I'm weaker I guess, struggling a little bit with balancing a 40 hour work week, with 5 courses at MUN, all while trying to maintain a social life and a relationship. Work and School aren't so bad, it's the latter that's really doing me in. *shrugs*
What else... so that friendship ending that I talked about in my last post was a lot harder to deal with than I was expecting. I ended up losing another 13 year friendship because of it. In the end it was definitely for the best, but sometimes it still hurts. On the upside of that, the friends that are still in my life are fan-fucking-tastic. :) I don't know what I'd do without them.
Oh yeah and the tragic part of the year, I finally got my license and bought a car! Well that's not the tragic part, that happened when after only 10 days of having my car, I rear-ended someone on Topsail Road, and not just anyone, but an employee of my old Tim's location. Awesome. Only minor damages (one small crack in my bumper, nothing on her truck) and no injuries, although she did try to claim whiplash, but the Paramedics, and Police Officers knew she was full of shit.
Other than that what else... oh right my sister-in-law Jenn and Vincent's brother Edwin (Owen's parents) had another baby, a perfect little boy Reid on January 2nd. He's so awesome. And speaking of babies, EVERYONE IS FREAKING PREGNANT! Except me, thankfully! Vincent's 3 closest cousins are all expecting, One in June, One in July and One in August. And my older sister Sarah is also expecting a little girl on June 5th! :) Yay! A niece! My parents are over the moon excited since this is the first grandchild for them.
And that's only close family, not to mention the half dozen of Liz's family whose either had them within the last year or expecting this year. It's insane.
So as I've promised before and failed, I will make an honest attempt at updating this more often.
One idea I've had was to simply update with whatever I did that day, obviously not woke up/got ready/work/school etc, that's what facebook is for. But if I cook something yummy for dinner I'll post the recipe, or if a random customer does something entertaining I'll post the story. And now that I know how to add pictures from my phone I will occasionally be adding those as well.
So maybe, just maybe I'll keep it up.
:)
smile more
love always
Jessi
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