She was a beautiful soul on earth and now her soul is home.
Ar dheis Dé go raibh a hanam.
Mary Nurse
April 21st, 1922- February 18th, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
Life is complicated
Saturday February 18th, we lost a beautiful woman with the most amazing spirit and soul. Her attitude towards life was nothing short of inspiring. She could fine the silver lining in any situation, no matter how dire it seemed. She kept a daily journal simply titled "Gratefulness" and she found something to be grateful for everyday. She filled 31 books with the things she was grateful for. It really made me realize just how much I take for granted and how much I have to truly be grateful for. She absolutely loved "Desiderata" and strived to live it each and every day.
She was a beautiful soul on earth and now her soul is home.
Ar dheis Dé go raibh a hanam.
Mary Nurse
April 21st, 1922- February 18th, 2012
She was a beautiful soul on earth and now her soul is home.
Ar dheis Dé go raibh a hanam.
Mary Nurse
April 21st, 1922- February 18th, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
Study Break
So, Midterms. Working fulltime and taking a full course load has its challenges. The main one being that after working 8 hours at a job like mine, when you get home you want to shower, put on baggy sweat pants, curl up on the couch and die. Well maybe not die exactly, but relax, watch a shitty tv show on netflix, read a book... instead I get to rush to shower and make myself presentable, then rush out to MUN to sit through a super awesome and exciting Math class, and then attempt to do some work in my 4 online courses before heading home to passout. I know that this is only for a little while, and it will absolutely be worth it when it's all said and done, but holy good lord does it suck.
So far I have 3 out of 5 Midterms done, they were all okay, I straight up left out a question on my Business Essentials midterm because I had no sweet clue, Microeconomics wasn't too bad, but I have a lingering feeling that a 3 page essay (that includes graphs) is not long enough for a question worth 40%. But I digress. So tonight I have Macroeconomics and Accounting tomorrow morning... I know what you're thinking, an exam on a Friday night and a Saturday morning... Jessi must be the luckiest girl in the world. I know, try not to be too jealous. :)
So other than that, Valentine's Day came and went, I got roses from a wonderful regular customer. Made my day!
So far I have 3 out of 5 Midterms done, they were all okay, I straight up left out a question on my Business Essentials midterm because I had no sweet clue, Microeconomics wasn't too bad, but I have a lingering feeling that a 3 page essay (that includes graphs) is not long enough for a question worth 40%. But I digress. So tonight I have Macroeconomics and Accounting tomorrow morning... I know what you're thinking, an exam on a Friday night and a Saturday morning... Jessi must be the luckiest girl in the world. I know, try not to be too jealous. :)
So other than that, Valentine's Day came and went, I got roses from a wonderful regular customer. Made my day!
So anyway, that's all for now :)
Loves and Smiles
Jessi xox
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Another year has passed...
Haha so back again for a little bit maybe!
3 posts in 2008, and 3 posts in 2011. The last one being almost exactly 1 year ago. There's been some changes since then. Physically, I'm stronger, and can do about 15 push ups before collapsing, lost 12lbs, and 15 inches of hair. Emotionally, I'm weaker I guess, struggling a little bit with balancing a 40 hour work week, with 5 courses at MUN, all while trying to maintain a social life and a relationship. Work and School aren't so bad, it's the latter that's really doing me in. *shrugs*
What else... so that friendship ending that I talked about in my last post was a lot harder to deal with than I was expecting. I ended up losing another 13 year friendship because of it. In the end it was definitely for the best, but sometimes it still hurts. On the upside of that, the friends that are still in my life are fan-fucking-tastic. :) I don't know what I'd do without them.
Oh yeah and the tragic part of the year, I finally got my license and bought a car! Well that's not the tragic part, that happened when after only 10 days of having my car, I rear-ended someone on Topsail Road, and not just anyone, but an employee of my old Tim's location. Awesome. Only minor damages (one small crack in my bumper, nothing on her truck) and no injuries, although she did try to claim whiplash, but the Paramedics, and Police Officers knew she was full of shit.
Other than that what else... oh right my sister-in-law Jenn and Vincent's brother Edwin (Owen's parents) had another baby, a perfect little boy Reid on January 2nd. He's so awesome. And speaking of babies, EVERYONE IS FREAKING PREGNANT! Except me, thankfully! Vincent's 3 closest cousins are all expecting, One in June, One in July and One in August. And my older sister Sarah is also expecting a little girl on June 5th! :) Yay! A niece! My parents are over the moon excited since this is the first grandchild for them.
And that's only close family, not to mention the half dozen of Liz's family whose either had them within the last year or expecting this year. It's insane.
So as I've promised before and failed, I will make an honest attempt at updating this more often.
One idea I've had was to simply update with whatever I did that day, obviously not woke up/got ready/work/school etc, that's what facebook is for. But if I cook something yummy for dinner I'll post the recipe, or if a random customer does something entertaining I'll post the story. And now that I know how to add pictures from my phone I will occasionally be adding those as well.
So maybe, just maybe I'll keep it up.
:)
smile more
love always
Jessi
3 posts in 2008, and 3 posts in 2011. The last one being almost exactly 1 year ago. There's been some changes since then. Physically, I'm stronger, and can do about 15 push ups before collapsing, lost 12lbs, and 15 inches of hair. Emotionally, I'm weaker I guess, struggling a little bit with balancing a 40 hour work week, with 5 courses at MUN, all while trying to maintain a social life and a relationship. Work and School aren't so bad, it's the latter that's really doing me in. *shrugs*
What else... so that friendship ending that I talked about in my last post was a lot harder to deal with than I was expecting. I ended up losing another 13 year friendship because of it. In the end it was definitely for the best, but sometimes it still hurts. On the upside of that, the friends that are still in my life are fan-fucking-tastic. :) I don't know what I'd do without them.
Oh yeah and the tragic part of the year, I finally got my license and bought a car! Well that's not the tragic part, that happened when after only 10 days of having my car, I rear-ended someone on Topsail Road, and not just anyone, but an employee of my old Tim's location. Awesome. Only minor damages (one small crack in my bumper, nothing on her truck) and no injuries, although she did try to claim whiplash, but the Paramedics, and Police Officers knew she was full of shit.
Other than that what else... oh right my sister-in-law Jenn and Vincent's brother Edwin (Owen's parents) had another baby, a perfect little boy Reid on January 2nd. He's so awesome. And speaking of babies, EVERYONE IS FREAKING PREGNANT! Except me, thankfully! Vincent's 3 closest cousins are all expecting, One in June, One in July and One in August. And my older sister Sarah is also expecting a little girl on June 5th! :) Yay! A niece! My parents are over the moon excited since this is the first grandchild for them.
And that's only close family, not to mention the half dozen of Liz's family whose either had them within the last year or expecting this year. It's insane.
So as I've promised before and failed, I will make an honest attempt at updating this more often.
One idea I've had was to simply update with whatever I did that day, obviously not woke up/got ready/work/school etc, that's what facebook is for. But if I cook something yummy for dinner I'll post the recipe, or if a random customer does something entertaining I'll post the story. And now that I know how to add pictures from my phone I will occasionally be adding those as well.
So maybe, just maybe I'll keep it up.
:)
smile more
love always
Jessi
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Death of a friendship *Personal Post, just needed somewhere to vent
Today I ended an 11 year friendship. It's been dieing since October, when she said/did some really hurtful things. It's been on life support ever since, and today I finally decided to pull the plug. People change, I've changed, but she wasn't willing to accept it. Lives get busy, but true friends can meet up after not seeing each other for weeks and pick up just as they left off. We've always had conflicting views on having and maintaining different groups of friends, she pretty much thought it couldn't be done, while I have several groups who I keep in regular contact with. Ever since high school this has been an issue, from when I first extended my friendship circle to include "work friends". And it's just gotten worse from there. If I had previous plans made with one group (usually weeks in advance) but she insisted on calling me that afternoon to make plans, when I declined she would call me a bad friend, and say that I was always picking others over her. It was like being in an abusive relationship. In the last year it's gotten worse, constantly critisizing my school decisions, work decisions, relationship decisions, personal decisions... I couldn't take it. So as the year dragged on I slowly started standing up for myself and made a point to try and get our friendship back on track. That was until my birthday, after everything that had happened, I figured we'd be able to at least have a non-drama filled night for my birthday celebrations. I quickly realized this would not be the case when she came and dropped off her boyfriend at my party, then told me she was literally just dropping him off, and then leaving to go to a different party instead. I was hurt, but didn't want it to ruin my night. Until I later heard that she had told everyone in my kitchen (some of mine and Vincent's friends) that the reason she wasn't staying was because I wasn't a good enough friend to deserve her being there. I was hurt, bad. It wasn't what she said, I've had her say that 100 times before, and then we got over it, but to say it to people in my house on my birthday, instead of just talking to me, was the lowest thing that she has ever done.
For weeks I boiled inside, so angry that she wouldn't just talk to me, everytime I saw her after that she acted like nothing had happened, which would have been the normal course of events had she actually told me... maybe she didn't know I knew, who knows. All I know is that I should have talked to her then, I should have just dealt with it, but I wanted to avoid the conflict. I tried to just cut off all contact, just walk away without explaining. But I caved pretty quick when our other close friend started talking about Christmas, I figured if this was going to be our potentially last Christmas as friends I should maybe try and patch things up, if for no other reason than to make myself feel better. But it did the exact opposite, I felt angrier than ever that she didn't even try to apologize or show any regret for how much she hurt me that night. If I had dealt with it back in November when I should have it wouldn't have been so hard, but after today it was clear.
Today, she invited me to her son's birthday on Saturday, being a super busy month for work (Roll Up The Rim just started) and people (I have 8 close people born within 10 days of each other) I explained that I might be late leaving work, and I'd already made some birthday supper plans weeks ago, so I could come right after work, but leave before they ate dinner. To which she replied "Forget about it, just don't come". I realized in that exact moment, that it was over. I realized that even if I changed my plans to go to this party it would be the most awkward time to be there with her. There was no way around it, I'd brought myself to a point where I couldn't stop, so I just laid it on the table "Maybe you're right, I hope he has fun. I hope you have a great time. See you around someday. But I'm done." And with that last sentence the friendship died.
She then proceeded to post on facebook about "the bitch move" I had made. So I deleted her, I'm done reading crap written about me, and decided that the drama is over, maybe it was a bitch move, but honestly I am done, I just can't bring myself to care enough to try and salvage it now. What was said has been said, I can't take it back now, and neither can she. I wish her all the happiness, and health in her life, I just won't be in it, and I don't want her to be a part of mine.
So here we are, I'm almost relieved, all that built up animosity is gone. I know it's going to be awkward, we have alot of mutual friends, so we will have no choice but to see each other from time to time. But hopefully we can exchange polite pleasantries, but I'm okay with just ignoring each other for now.
At 22 years old, I'm happy to say, for the first time I'm walking away from the drama instead of being sucked right back in. I just never imagined it would be like this.
For weeks I boiled inside, so angry that she wouldn't just talk to me, everytime I saw her after that she acted like nothing had happened, which would have been the normal course of events had she actually told me... maybe she didn't know I knew, who knows. All I know is that I should have talked to her then, I should have just dealt with it, but I wanted to avoid the conflict. I tried to just cut off all contact, just walk away without explaining. But I caved pretty quick when our other close friend started talking about Christmas, I figured if this was going to be our potentially last Christmas as friends I should maybe try and patch things up, if for no other reason than to make myself feel better. But it did the exact opposite, I felt angrier than ever that she didn't even try to apologize or show any regret for how much she hurt me that night. If I had dealt with it back in November when I should have it wouldn't have been so hard, but after today it was clear.
Today, she invited me to her son's birthday on Saturday, being a super busy month for work (Roll Up The Rim just started) and people (I have 8 close people born within 10 days of each other) I explained that I might be late leaving work, and I'd already made some birthday supper plans weeks ago, so I could come right after work, but leave before they ate dinner. To which she replied "Forget about it, just don't come". I realized in that exact moment, that it was over. I realized that even if I changed my plans to go to this party it would be the most awkward time to be there with her. There was no way around it, I'd brought myself to a point where I couldn't stop, so I just laid it on the table "Maybe you're right, I hope he has fun. I hope you have a great time. See you around someday. But I'm done." And with that last sentence the friendship died.
She then proceeded to post on facebook about "the bitch move" I had made. So I deleted her, I'm done reading crap written about me, and decided that the drama is over, maybe it was a bitch move, but honestly I am done, I just can't bring myself to care enough to try and salvage it now. What was said has been said, I can't take it back now, and neither can she. I wish her all the happiness, and health in her life, I just won't be in it, and I don't want her to be a part of mine.
So here we are, I'm almost relieved, all that built up animosity is gone. I know it's going to be awkward, we have alot of mutual friends, so we will have no choice but to see each other from time to time. But hopefully we can exchange polite pleasantries, but I'm okay with just ignoring each other for now.
At 22 years old, I'm happy to say, for the first time I'm walking away from the drama instead of being sucked right back in. I just never imagined it would be like this.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Lazy Sunday :)
So time for an update :)
I'm going to try to do this once a week, probably on Sunday, since it's my guaranteed day off during the week.
So not a whole lot has happened this week, work was work, nothing too out of the ordinary. Haven't really tried out any new recipes, made a wicked "eye of round roast" in my new slow cooker. Om nom nom.
It snowed...alot. With more still in the forecast. Winter avoided us for Decemeber, but it's making up for lost time now.
Owen (Vincent's nephew) turned 3 yesterday. crazyy. It literally seems like yesterday when Jenn told us she was pregnant. He's so big and grown up now. Seeing kids grow blows my mind. Having our own someday is going to be nuts. Haha, thinking about offspring created by Vincent and I is one hilarious thought.
So, other than that, I think I'm pretty much out of that funk I was in, started exercising again, which was the biggest help and definitely something I needed. I also started reading the Bible. Honest. I was a fairly intense Christian in jr high and most of high school, but never bothered to actually read the book that the entire faith is based upon. So I figured maybe I should actually give it a read through. I've been essentially Agnostic for the last few years, going to church on occasion and praying from time to time, but nothing really substantial.
But I feel like I should give it a chance (of course without turning all crazy fundamental). I've started a reading plan called "The one-year bible" pretty much it gives you little bits from the Old Testament, New Testament, Psalms, and Proverbs to read everyday, it only takes about 15-20 minutes, and so far it's... interesting. Maybe I should start a separate blog for that, I'm sure some of my Christian, Agnostic and even Atheist friends would find something interesting about it.
So that's all for me this week,
Oh and since tomorrow is mine and Vincent's 5 year anniversary (on Valentine's day, lame haha I know)
I leave you with my favorite Valentine
I'm going to try to do this once a week, probably on Sunday, since it's my guaranteed day off during the week.
So not a whole lot has happened this week, work was work, nothing too out of the ordinary. Haven't really tried out any new recipes, made a wicked "eye of round roast" in my new slow cooker. Om nom nom.
It snowed...alot. With more still in the forecast. Winter avoided us for Decemeber, but it's making up for lost time now.
Owen (Vincent's nephew) turned 3 yesterday. crazyy. It literally seems like yesterday when Jenn told us she was pregnant. He's so big and grown up now. Seeing kids grow blows my mind. Having our own someday is going to be nuts. Haha, thinking about offspring created by Vincent and I is one hilarious thought.
So, other than that, I think I'm pretty much out of that funk I was in, started exercising again, which was the biggest help and definitely something I needed. I also started reading the Bible. Honest. I was a fairly intense Christian in jr high and most of high school, but never bothered to actually read the book that the entire faith is based upon. So I figured maybe I should actually give it a read through. I've been essentially Agnostic for the last few years, going to church on occasion and praying from time to time, but nothing really substantial.
But I feel like I should give it a chance (of course without turning all crazy fundamental). I've started a reading plan called "The one-year bible" pretty much it gives you little bits from the Old Testament, New Testament, Psalms, and Proverbs to read everyday, it only takes about 15-20 minutes, and so far it's... interesting. Maybe I should start a separate blog for that, I'm sure some of my Christian, Agnostic and even Atheist friends would find something interesting about it.
So that's all for me this week,
Oh and since tomorrow is mine and Vincent's 5 year anniversary (on Valentine's day, lame haha I know)
I leave you with my favorite Valentine
Sunday, February 6, 2011
I'm back :)
So after close to 3 years, I've decided to make a triumphant return to the world of blogs.
With my promotion, and with school likely in the near-ish future, I've entered kind of a funk. I have no particular problem with anything, Work is fine, Me and Vincent are doing good, and I'm looking forward to going back to school, but even though everything is fine, I don't feel happy, not sad either, kind of like I'm just going through the motions without emotion. (This is getting a little deep haha) Anyway, so everyone who I've talked to so far has given me the same advice "If you don't like it, then change it", So I've decided to break my work-home-eat-clean-sleep routine by getting back to my blog, among other things, just finding stuff to write about might just take up enough time to break the cycle :)
So in upcoming posts you can expect updates, random news facts and probably a recipe or two.
So now I leave you with...
With my promotion, and with school likely in the near-ish future, I've entered kind of a funk. I have no particular problem with anything, Work is fine, Me and Vincent are doing good, and I'm looking forward to going back to school, but even though everything is fine, I don't feel happy, not sad either, kind of like I'm just going through the motions without emotion. (This is getting a little deep haha) Anyway, so everyone who I've talked to so far has given me the same advice "If you don't like it, then change it", So I've decided to break my work-home-eat-clean-sleep routine by getting back to my blog, among other things, just finding stuff to write about might just take up enough time to break the cycle :)
So in upcoming posts you can expect updates, random news facts and probably a recipe or two.
So now I leave you with...
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